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  “Please Jaxon.” I shifted on the bed. “I can’t take much more of this.”

  “I want you to remember the first time I entered you.” He guided his cock to my entrance and pushed in slowly. “Look at me.” He stared down into my eyes and smiled as I gasped loudly. His cock was slow and deliberate as he entered me and I wasn’t sure if he was going to fit inside of me.

  “How big are you?” I moaned as he continued his entry inside of me.

  “You’ll have to measure me sometime.” He winked at me and then thrusted hard.

  “Oooh.” I screamed as I felt a sharp jab of pain.

  “It won’t hurt for long.” He whispered against my lips and then started moving slowly in and out of me. He was right, within seconds the pain had turned to exquisite pleasure. I started moving my hips back and forth on the bed to match his movements. His cock felt so hard and delicious inside of me.

  “Oh shit.” He groaned as he pulled out of me quickly.

  “What are you doing?” I cried out as his cock left me.

  “I need to put a rubber on. Hold on.” He jumped up and I watched as he quickly slid a condom on his hard cock.

  “Omg, Jaxon.” I screamed as he entered me again. This time there was nothing gentle about his movements. He moved in and out of me quickly and his breathing also increased as he got into it. He pulled my legs up and placed them over his shoulder and I screamed as he entered me. I felt him harder and deeper than before and I understood in that moment exactly why people were so addicted to sex. This was the best feeling in the world. I’d never felt so high before in my life. I felt like I was flying, soaring through the sky. I never knew that my body could experience such pleasure.

  “I’m about to come, Nancy.” He whispered against my lips. “Come for me.” His fingers reached down and rubbed my clit as he continued fucking me and I came hard and fast. That seemed to please him because he grinned before stilling. I felt his cock slowing as he came. His body jerked for a few seconds and then he collapsed on top of me and kissed me hard. I kissed him equally as hard back, not thinking about anything other than what had just happened and how great it had made me feel.

  “I’ll marry you.” I whispered to Jaxon. “If it’s going to help both of us and we can have more moments like this, then yes. I’ll marry you.” I smiled up at him and rested my head against his chest. “I’ll marry you whenever you want.”

  CHAPTER

  SEVEN

  Jaxon

  “I should win a fucking Academy Award.” I muttered into the phone. “It’s done.”

  “Good.” He replied. “Congratulations.”

  “Don’t sound so happy for me.” I growled, angry that he didn’t sound as happy as I thought he would.

  “What can I say? You’re finally getting what you want. Everything is falling into place.”

  “Yes, it is.” I ignored the pangs in my heart and the despair in my soul. For some reason it didn’t feel as good as I’d always thought it would. “I’m so close to getting what I wanted.”

  “So she’s going to marry you.”

  “Yup, she’s going to marry me.” I tried to forget the look on her face as she’d uttered the words I’d been waiting to hear. I should have been happy. I should have been over the moon at what I’d accomplished.

  “Your father would have been proud of you.”

  “Thanks. I’m doing this for him.” I closed my eyes and sighed as I thought about my dad. “You know that right, uncle?”

  “I know. I understand why.” He sighed. “You’re like a son to me.”

  “You’re like a dad to me. You know that.” I whispered into the phone. “I know that you wish things were different, but you’ll always be my second dad. I’ll always think of you as father.”

  “My brother would have been happy to hear that.” He sighed.

  “I’m so close now. His death won’t be in vain.”

  “You’re sure this is the move you want to make?”

  “I’m sure.” I nodded and hung up the phone. I walked over to my desk and opened the folder I had on Brandon Hastings. I looked over everything again and felt my heart hardening. Yes, I was absolutely sure. Then an image of Nancy popped into my mind. Her eyes pierced my soul. All I could think about was the way she’d looked at me when I’d taken her virginity. I couldn’t ignore the feelings of guilt and remorse that flooded me. She was a casualty of war. She was a casualty that had no idea that she was allies with the enemy. She was a casualty that could ruin everything. I closed my eyes and tried to forget what it’d felt like to fuck her. It had felt different. She was right. We had a connection. We had something that I’d never experienced before. I’d lied to her about so much, but I hadn’t lied to her about how I felt about her. Part of me did want to be different for her. Part of me wanted to be a better man. Part of me was scared at the feelings that overcame me when I was with her. I hadn’t accounted for the feelings and I wasn’t sure how to put them to the side. I was too close to fuck everything up now. I couldn’t let anything get in the way of the plan. Even if it meant I went down with the ship. I’d get my revenge if it was the last thing I did. Nothing and no one was going to stop me from achieving my goal. Not even Nancy. Her face and sweet unsure smile filled my head and I knew that ruining Brandon would ruin her as well. My heart broke then. A heart I hadn’t known existed. I’d gone too far. I knew it in the depths of my souls. I knew it as sure as the fires burned in hell. I knew it as sure as I knew that the only devil in the situation was me, and I wasn’t about to change anything in the plan. No matter how I felt about Nancy.

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  Nancy

  I never thought I’d become one of those girls who lost their minds once they had sex. I never thought I’d be one of those girls, but all I could think about was Jaxon and how he’d fit so perfectly inside of me.

  Every minute of the day my thoughts revolved around him and my father. There was a hole in my heart. A hole that hadn’t been filled when I’d become part of the family. No matter how much I’d tried to convince myself that I was okay, I was still bitter and depressed that he hadn’t tried to find me. I wasn’t utterly convinced that he would have bothered to find me if I hadn’t come to the private club with Frank.

  I tried to ignore the pangs of hurt and let myself think about Jaxon instead. He was so much better than I’d initially thought. He still had issues and I still didn’t trust him 100%, but at least he was honest. And he was an excellent lover. I smiled to myself as I thought about how he made me feel. So wonderful and relaxed. I would enjoy being married to him for however long it lasted. I’d enjoy him teaching me all the kinky things he knew. I laughed as I thought about just how much I’d love that. It’s weird how life can change in an instant. All of a sudden I didn’t feel so alone. I knew that Jaxon had issues, but so did I. We both had problems related to our parents. But that didn’t mean we couldn’t work our way through them. The way I saw it we were birds of a feather. We were both cut out of the same cloth. Maybe, just maybe if we got married, we’d both find what we’d been searching for our whole lives. I knew that I was a dreamer. I knew that sometimes life didn’t live up to my expectations and hopes. I couldn’t help that. I wanted the fairy tale. I wanted to be rescued. I wanted to look in a man’s eyes and know that he loved me more than anything. I wanted to be his number one. I needed to be his number one. My mother had loved Brandon. My grandparents had loved my mother. Brandon loved Katie. Hunter hadn’t even known I existed. I wanted just one person to look at me as their number one. I wanted Jaxon to look at me and realize that I was special to him. I was ashamed to admit it. Even to myself. It made me feel weak and pitiful, but it also made me feel alive. It gave me something to be hopeful about. There was a part of me that really wanted to be with Jaxon. Even on the train, when I hadn’t even met him, I’d been drawn to him.

  The knock on my door made me jump up off the bed and run to my door.

  “You’re knocking again?” I ask
ed softly after I opened the door.

  “Well you know.” He shrugged and walked in. “Now I know you prefer that.”

  “You always knew that.” I smiled at him and grabbed onto his arm.

  “Well now I care about your wishes.” He grinned and closed the door.

  “Oh so you didn’t care before?”

  “Not so much.” He laughed and pulled me towards me. “But now that your wishes are directly related to how lucky I’m going to get, I figured I should care.”

  “You’re so transparent.” I rolled my eyes and leaned forward to kiss him.

  “Is that a bad thing?” His eyes twinkled as he kissed me back.

  “No. I like you transparent.”

  “Did you tell your dad about the wedding?”

  “No.” I shook my head. “I’m going to tell him afterwards.”

  “Makes sense. I’ll tell my dad afterwards as well.” He nodded. “We can tell them both at the same time.”

  “They are going to be so pissed.” I nibbled on my lower lip.

  “That will be their problem.” He shrugged. “I’m done playing these games just because my father wants me to.”

  “Yeah.” I nodded. “It will feel good to not have to lie anymore. Well not lie directly I guess. It will feel good not to have to avoid telling the truth.”

  “We have to do what we have to do.” He pulled me towards the bed to him. “No matter how bad it makes us feel inside when we lie. We have to do what’s right.”

  “I just don’t want to hurt anyone.” I sighed.

  “I don’t think either of us wants to hurt someone we care about.” He pushed me back on the bed. “However sometimes the greater good means that there are casualties on the way.”

  “I don’t want there to be any casualties.”

  “I know you don’t.” He brushed the hair away from my face. “You’re a good girl. I’m not sure that I deserve to be with someone as good as you.”

  “I’m not that good.” I replied, feeling pleased.

  “Modest as well.” He pulled his t-shirt off. “You’re too good for your own good.”

  “No one ever said that to me before.” I laughed and reached down and pushed my hand into his shorts. “Are you hard or just happy to see me.” I squeezed his cock, delighting in the sound of his groans as I felt him hardening in my hands.

  “What do you think?” He grinned as he reached over and squeezed my breast.

  “I think you’re happy to see me.” I laughed and pulled his shorts down. “Very happy, it seems.”

  “You like that, don’t you?”

  “Yeah, I kinda do.” I nodded and lowered my head. “I really do.” I took his cock in my mouth and sucked softly, bobbing my head up and down, taking him as far into my mouth as I could.

  “You do that like a seasoned pro.” He groaned and lay back on the bed.

  “I’m not sure if that’s a compliment.” I looked up at him and smiled.

  “It is.” He pulled me up and pushed me down on the bed. “Let me get your panties off. I need you naked.”

  “Need or want?”

  “Both.” He growled as he threw my clothes onto the ground. “Do you know how badly I want you?”

  “I think I just might.” I grabbed his hand and pushed it into my wet pussy. “As badly as this?” I moaned as I felt his fingers slip inside of me.

  “Yes, as badly as that.” He groaned and lay down on the bed. “Get on top of me.”

  “What?”

  “It’s time for you to learn a new move.”

  “New move?”

  “I want you to ride me.”

  “Like a cowgirl!”

  “Exactly like a cowgirl.” He pulled me on top of him. “I want you to be my dirty cowgirl.” He reached up and grabbed my breasts.

  “Does that mean you’re my dirty cowboy?” I positioned myself over his cock and started rubbing myself back and forth.

  “It makes me your stud.” He grabbed my hips and held me still. “And if you keep teasing me like that I’m not even going to be able to stop myself from pushing myself inside of you.”

  “Shouldn’t you get a rubber?” I looked at him for a few seconds and continued to slowly move my hips.

  “Not this time. I want you to feel what it’s like to fuck without a condom.”

  “Oh.” I bit my lower lip. “I don’t want to pregnant.”

  “I’ll pull out before I come.” He smiled at me gently. “And hey, a baby would be a good reason to get married.”

  “I’m too young to have a child.” I leaned down and kissed him. “Though I have to admit that makes me feel kinda good that you want to have a baby with me.”

  “I’d love to have a baby with you.” His expression changed as he stared at me. “Though you’re right, this wouldn’t be the right time.”

  “I’ve still got to go to college first.” I nodded and we both groaned as I gyrated my hips on top of him and the tip of his cock entered my pussy slightly.

  “Where are you going?” He groaned as he played with my nipples.

  “I don’t know as yet.” I sat forward slowly and then lowered myself on top of his cock. It felt so hard and long and I w

  “Don’t stop.” He groaned and wiggled my hips back and forth.

  “It won’t fit.” I groaned.

  “Lean forward slightly.” He guided my body towards him and I sunk down further on his cock.

  “Oh my god.” I exclaimed as he filled me up.

  “Move back and forth.” He groaned as I moved on him. “And up and down.”

  I followed his directions hesitantly at first and then as it started feeling better and better, I started moving faster and faster.

  “That’s it.” He groaned as I increased my pace. “Oh my, Nancy don’t stop.” He stared up at me with dark eyes. “Whatever you do, don’t stop.”

  “I won’t.” I moaned as I felt his cock hitting a certain spot. The spot felt like dynamite and I rode him quickly hoping to have him rub up against me in that spot as much as possible.

  “Touch yourself.” He commanded me as I moved back and forth.

  “Huh?” I looked at him blankly for a second and he guided my fingers to my clit. “Touch yourself as you ride me, trust me, it will only make everything feel better.”

  “Okay.” I rubbed myself lightly as I continued to ride him. I groaned as I arched my back and started to feel that I was about to orgasm. “Oh my.” I cried out as I felt my whole body was about to explode. I closed my eyes and rode him faster, rubbing myself faster as well. “Jaxon,” I screamed as I came. I opened my eyes and saw his eyes widen as he grabbed my hips.

  “Shit.” He groaned as his body twitched on the bed. “I’m coming.” He moved my hips back and forth quickly and I could feel his sperm filling me up. Finally he let me go and I collapsed onto his chest.

  “Shit.” He rubbed my hair and my back as I kissed his cheek.

  “What?”

  “I forgot to pull out.”

  “It’s okay.” I kissed him on the lips. “It felt right. Whatever happens, happens.” I smiled at him through sleepy eyes. Nothing mattered in that moment. Everything was alright in the world.

  “You should be mad at me, Nancy.” His hand caressed the curve of my ass.

  “It’s not your fault.” I shook my head and ran my fingers down his chest. “We’ll have to be more careful next time.”

  “You have too much faith in me.” He shook his head. “You shouldn’t...”

  “Shh.” I put my finger on his lips. “Don’t say it. I trust you, Jaxon.” I kissed him again. “There’s something between us. Something intangible. We’re in this together. We’ve both been manipulated by men that should love us. We’re a product of our upbringing and environment.”

  “I’m flattered that you see the best in me, Nancy. I don’t know that I deserve it.”

  “Oh, but you do.” He cuddled up to me. “I see inside of you, Jaxon. You’re just like me. You’re hidi
ng inside somewhere because you’ve been deeply hurt and never felt a true love.”

  “I don’t believe in love.” He shook his head and pursed his lips.

  “I’m not talking about romantic love.” I ran my fingers over his lips. “Though, that’s a part of it. I’m talking about unadulterated, pure love. Being loved just for being you, with all your faults and idiosyncrasies. We’re two peas in a pod, Jaxon. I trust you because I believe in you. I believe that at the end of the day, you have my back and you like me. You like me a lot. I know that because I like you. I really like you. I always had this dream that I’d meet someone and we’d be soul mates.” I looked into his eyes. “Don’t go all scared on me or anything, but I had this dream that I’d meet someone that understood me. I’ve always been a lonely soul, trying to figure out the world by myself. And I’ve always felt slightly lost. I guess that’s why it was so easy for Frank to manipulate me and it was so easy for me to have a crush on Hunter. But with you, I don’t feel lost anymore. I don’t feel like I have to pretend to be someone I’m not. I can be me. I can tell you how I feel. I can tell you what I’m thinking and you can do the same. We can both be real with each other. Neither of us is perfect. Neither of us knows what’s going to happen, but we can figure it out by ourselves. We can do this. We can really do this, Jaxon.” I grabbed his hands and held them in mine. “For so many years I’ve doubted myself and my thoughts. I’ve been scared to know who to trust and what to do. The first person I ever met that made me believe in myself was Meg. She saw something in me, she liked me and she treated me as an equal. I’ll always love her for that. However, at the end of the day, she has a best friend. She has someone that holds her in high regard. You and me, we’re loners. We play by ourselves. Well Jaxon, we don’t have to be loners anymore.” I snuggled up next to him and stroked his face. “I trust you and I want you to know that I think coming to the Lovers’ Academy was the best decision I’ve ever made in my life.” I took a deep breath then, not wanting to overwhelm him. I could see from his face that he was taken aback. A part of me wondered if I’d come on too strong. Maybe I’d scared him? I swallowed hard as I waited for him to respond. I needed to know that he felt the same as I did. It didn’t matter what trials were put in front of us as long as we had each other. I really and truly believed that.